Lately, nothing seems to go right. I've pretty much lost my appetite, and sometimes just the thought of eating makes me sick. I'm always tired, and I feel really depressed all the time. I don't feel happy with the little things that usually make me smile. I feel so tired, mentally and physically. I feel like i'm going to fall asleep and never wake up. I don't feel like I have the energy to go on during the day, to put on a smile and act like i'm fine. I can't just smile when other people are around, then go be in my blissful isolation. Being alone used to make me feel happy. Now, it just makes me feel scared. But when i'm around other people, I get irritated so easily. I feel like a bomb, about to blow up. I don't know why i'm like this. I don't like it. I wish I could stop feeling like I do, but no matter what I do to try and be happy, it just doesn't work. I still feel sadness tugging at the corners, always looking to overwhelm me so I just curl up into a ball where I am and burst into tears. I've lost all my inspiration for art. I can't draw anything. Whenever I try to draw, I just sit, looking at the paper, pencil in hand. Just the other day I sat for an hour, trying to draw something. But I couldn't. My joints feel heavy and numb. My body won't move like I tell it to. I just feel so alone. Its becoming unbearable. I feel like i'm drowning. I can't take another breath. The water is forcing all the oxyogen out of my lungs. Its becoming so hard to stay awake. I can feel myself slipping, but if I let go, I may never be able to come all the way back. I'm afraid i'm going to lose myself.